I might not seem it, but I want to inspire. I want to become so much more than what I am now. My dream is to become the President of the United States. Soon…but for now I’m going to therapy for my problems. But I promise myself everyday, that my parents don’t hate me like I think they do. I just have to work around my problems.
I know the world has a lot of ugly truth. Me, being myself, I didn’t know a lot of the ugly truth of society until my friends were going through all their troubles. I had to learn fast and change fast in order to help them the best I could. I hate to see my friends in so much pain and harm. I will do whatever I can to protect them. That’s my goal and mission.
I have had and still have so many problems. Weight loss is a major problem. I’m 5 feet and 7 inches and obese. It’s disgusting and i hate myself for it. I do a ton of sports and am somewhat fit but that doesn’t stop people from judging me on sight. One look and people will think: “oh she’s fat, can’t run and barely breathe.” I want to prove them wrong. Here’s an incident that happened to me once. I’m on the track team and once when i finished the 200 meters dash in third, another girl that ran the race came up to me and said: “Wow, I had no idea you would be faster than me.” I didn’t know if I was suppose to take it as a compliment or insult at my figure. This just goes to show that humans, especially the stupid standard filled teenagers, in this world are judgmental and cruel.
I’m sure I’m not the only one with problems and I promise myself I will overcome these problems, but its not all that easy. I want to help others, it makes me feel better.
For now, if you need help or advice about anything, and don’t want to say it out loud, tell me HERE, anon. I won’t judge you. I promise. Everyone has their weaknesses. No one can be strong forever, everyone needs to let it out sometimes. Until then I want to let you know that:
I LOVE YOU <3